I decided to switch from edublogs to wordpress in hopes of a better format. The more I read, the more I realize how much I want a place to write down my feelings and thoughts of this new adventure I feel I am taking part in. Hopefully wordpress.com will be a good place.
I am so thankful for the experience I have gone through this year. I agreed to take part in a professional development experience called the Powerful Learning Practice which began in September. It has helped me to change and grow as a teacher, but more importantly as a person. I realize now that we are in a time of educational revolution. Whether people know it or not I truly believe that with my heart and soul. It’s scary, exciting, overwhelming, and invigorating. I suppose I sound like one who may enjoy extreme sports like jumping out of an airplane, but I do not. This process, this realization that I am #1 not alone, #2 a learner just like my students, and #3 passionate, truly passionate about education and am in the right field of work has been priceless.
Now, with that being said, it has also been and continues to be a painfully frustrating process at times. At times, I have felt like I have been alone during the day to day struggles. The school culture in an old private institution like the one I work in can be slow to change, very slow. There are really good things about that and really bad things about that. I believe, many teachers that have gotten into education got into it because they like security and didn’t like change…they also like to be in control. I am guilty of all of those things. I am in no way saying all teachers are like that, but many are. However, change is acomin’, it always does. The job you signed up for as a teacher is no longer, most likely, the job you will have. I struggle to share my ideas with my colleagues without overwhelming them. I have been told twice this year that I am “overwhelming.” Why? Because I put forth ideas that are new and use what I think may be a better tool to teach something. Why do teachers feel like they have to do what everyone else is doing? Why do they feel like they have to keep up with the person next door? I just read a blog that put forth the idea of not calling us “teachers” anymore–who knows, maybe that will help people think of themselves differently and open up.
I am being impatient I know. I wish I could make my administrators tell everyone next year that they do not have to do anything new–they just have to be learners. They just have to connect to the outside world, read some blogs, lurk on Twitter, check out some new tools and then meet once a month for some wine or beer to talk about it…casually talk about what they found, what they wondered, what they got scared or angry about. I wonder how quickly the “Shift” would happen then? I think it would happen pretty quickly.